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Wednesday, Feb. 08, 2006 - 5:54 a.m. Closing the door on this chapter
Mike and I talked yesterday afternoon
before I left the office. He had all the other attorneys in with him late
in the afternoon to discuss my departure. They are going to start
gathering resumes from a local paralegal school today and start interviewing
either this week or next. Mike thought I wanted this Friday to be my last
day to which I replied that I planned to basically be around for about a month
in order to get the new person in, trained and settled. He was very nice,
very understanding, not mad, said he realized the stress that I was under and
really doesn't blame me for wanting to stay home with my son. He is only a
baby once. I of course started crying and told him how much I hated to
leave him in this situation, because I really do, but at this time, I have to
pick one over the other and there really should be no debate over that. I
just can't do it all. I know that there are single mothers everywhere who
work and raise their children, but, I have to believe they have jobs that allow
for that flexibility to tend to their kids' needs and schedules. And
putting Travis in day care would eat up a good chunk of what I earn, so why work
when there is going to be very little payoff in the end? Tarik makes
enough money to support all of us right now. Granted, we won't be able to
save as much as we have in the past couple of years, but I have become extremely
disciplined with our spending and can manage our money so that its not all spent
each month, and some can find its way into our coffers. And I happen to be leaving in the midst of
one of the busiest times for us. I know that is going to cause him
considerable stress. If I had my way, I would just be gone for a couple of
years to give Tarik time to finish up what he is doing in Jordan, and then go
back to work for Mike. And that could happen. Who knows. But I
did point out to Mike that I am available for part time work when needed,
especially during the pre-trial preps. When my maternity leave replacement
came in, it took three weeks to get her trained on my desk and to a point where
I personally was comfortable enough to leave her on her own. She adapted
quite nicely, and is now on full time. In fact, she adapted so well, many
people in the building were unsure if I was going to return from maternity
leave. She is another issue in and of itself and one of the contributing
factors to my departure apart from the child care issue. But I
digress. Although we are extremely busy right now, as with all in the
service industry, getting paid for those services is an issue. The firm is
pretty tight on cash right now. Clients just aren't paying, or, the payout
on cases is very little for the amount of work put into them. I am pretty
sure I earn more than the other admins and freeing up my salary will help the
firm out a bit. I hate to leave the friends I have made
there because they have kept me sane day to day and fear that the inevitable
will occur in that I will lose touch with them. But perhaps I can turn
this into a positive. Two women in particular have needs. One
is a single mom who often has to bring her daughter to work with her when she is
sick, the other, our business manager, is in the middle of moving her husband,
who has Parkinson's, into a special care facility. Maybe with my absence,
I can somehow help them out with some of their special needs such as babysitting
and whatnot. I know they need lots of emotional support and I will be in a
better position to provide that with my not working. I
hope that my personality conflicts with my other co-workers will not leave a
lasting negative impression of me with some of the other attorneys and that they
will have positive things to say about me in the future. Mike said some really
nice things to me yesterday such as I have become more valuable the longer I
have been there because I know the cases and I know the clients. And he
pointed out that the clients have had nice things to say about me and have been
pleased with the service I have provided. Of course this got me upset and
made me cry. I think he understands that this has not been and easy
decision to make and that it really does hurt me to have to make it and its not
a frivolous or spur of the moment decision, but one made after much
consideration and reflection. Song
Virus du Jour: "Jane Says" ~ Jane's Addiction Useless
Trivia du Jour: I attended Lollapalooza 1992. It was a GREAT
show. At the time I didn't really seem like anything that special, but
after a few years I realized that the lineup was legendary. Here is the
lineup: Main
Stage: Red
Hot Chili Peppers, Ministry,
Ice Cube, Soundgarden,
The
Jesus and Mary Chain, Pearl
Jam, Lush, Temple
of the Dog Side
Stage: Jim
Rose Circus, Sharkbait,
Archie
Bell, Porno
for Pyros, Basehead,
Cypress
Hill, House
of Pain, Sweaty
Nipples, Arson
Garden, Seaweed,
Seam, Boo-Yaa
T.R.I.B.E., The
Look People, Stone
Temple Pilots, Vulgar
Boatmen, Truly,
Skrew, Tribe,
The
Authority, Samba
Hell, Rage
Against the Machine, Chris
Cornell and Eddie Vedder |
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